This doesn’t have anything to do with fiction, I know. I don’t ever discuss my personal life on here, but today is different. Today I went to go and see an employment agency named Remploy. Over the last 15 months, I have spoken to more agencies than I can count:
-Teesside uni careers
-Job Centre Plus
-Darlington Association on Disability
-Safe in Tees Valley
Yep, I’m a bit of a penniless author over here. All of these charities and careers services have told me I’m too smart, too nice, too well educated and too advanced to be there. They also want to tell me about their friends and family with autism. Why on earth do you think I should care? You’re not asking me for advice and you don’t seem interested in me at all.
1. I don’t care about your brother who can build robots!
Okay, this is definitely the thing I hate most. IDGAF if your cousin can build computers, if they how like a wolf on a balcony or if your son cannot speak and uses sign language.
2. I don’t want to tell you I have crippling anxiety
This is why I cancelled our meeting today, some days I don’t want to leave the house due to stress.
3. I don’t like being told I don’t fit in on Facebook
You guys are fake anyway, who on earth posts a sappy breakup post and gets love hearts in their inbox?!
4. I don’t want to be an author savant
I write because I enjoy it. I don’t blog because I have an obsession about books. I blog because I want to make a change in how people think.
5. I’m actually not undateable
I am single by choice and proud. Men are attracted to me, but I have the power of choice. I can casually date and not feel the need to make babies.
6. No, I CANNOT sing like SuBo!
I have no special talents, I am not a unique snowflake. In fact, even this blog is not special. There’s no news article about me, no ebooks, no awards. It’s a hobby, and people read my opinions once every 3 months (because I rarely upload on here).
7. And no, I won’t date your crazy Aspie friend!!
GO AWAY, you are not a match maker! What, do you think you are POF in real life? I want someone who I choose thank you very much. I want a well adjusted individual; don’t palm your friend off to me because he’s the consolation prize.
8. I don’t need help making friends
I have friends, and they like me for me. I have nights out, I go shopping, I go to the gym sometimes. PEOPLE ENJOY THEMSELVES AROUND ME. In fact, my friends bitch to me about how annoying their friend who is more disabled than me is.
9. I don’t want to be told “wow, you’re so normal!”
I know you probably didn’t know I had autism, it’s not visible like a wheelchair. Thanks for noticing me. I didn’t realise I needed a special award for basic stuff. Nobody will give me a Grammy for tying my shoelaces, you know. Get over it.
10. “But autistic people find English hard and maths easy because they are too logical and can’t understand metaphors or how to communicate”
BOI, STFU before I stick my pen in your eye! I cannot do maths, language is my forte. Yes I defy doctors but I don’t care.
People know me as many things: writer, blogger, fashionista, Buddhist, great cook, goth girl, bookworm. But I don’t let anyone see me as disabled; my condition doesn’t define me. We should all try and challenge a stereotype every single day.
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